[Erin Kesterson]

I have been through somethings that I have carried guilt and have been down burden of my life that has led me wrong. I couldn’t save someone I helped kill and I have been trying for so long to understand that I wasn’t the one who killed him. My addiction and his addiction are what changed my life. I didn’t make him use. I didn’t bring the drugs to him. I was the one who got clean and paid the cost for the choice we both made. It took me 3 years to accept the things that has happened in my life. I asked god to come help me find my way to forgiveness and I have finally been able to look at me in the mirror and forgive myself for being gone when he died and having to make that call from prison to my then 15 year old daughter that her daddy was gone and hearing her screams and the pain in her voice and not being able to hold her or be there for her. I paid dearly for them choices and finally learned that I have been saved by my lord and savior and I am free from the blame.