[Erin Kesterson]

This devotional really hits a spot inside of me and my life. I’ll explain when I was young, I mean living with my parents and being in elementary school and things like that. I can remember going to church twice a week and on Sundays going twice a day. I was raised a Christian I always lead my lifestyle as a Christian. When I was 21, I met a man who turned my world around. He interduce me to things and places I never thought of. I stopped going to church but still believed that this is what god had for me to test me. Then I started using and my faith become blame and then losing my daughter dad to an overdose while in prison, I couldn’t believe God would do things and make things happen to his children the ones he gave his life to. (I know I am probably going to get navigate remarks and that’s okay). My god and savior the one I have always lived by. I finally didn’t believe in the day I called my daughter and heard her screams because I had to tell her, her father died 2 days after Father’s Day. After coming home finding out I had stage 3 breast cancer what kind of God would do this? How could there be a god?
To finally finding my faith again. I got out of prison to start going back to church and praying every morning and every night. To understanding this.
God don’t precent us with all the answer on why he has plan what is ahead of us. I was taught in the church while in prison that God gives his strongest angels the hardest hands to play. At first, I was like there isn’t no god who makes his children suffer and go through the pain that we do. Today I am a smart beautiful faith living Christian and I will always believe in my lord and savior and know he knows when and where we are meant to be at in life and knows what path and what our purpose is. We might not know what he has planned we just have to remember that God won’t allow us to fall as long as we keep the faith of him no matter how far we stray away from him at points in our lives we don’t believe as long as we find our way back to him.